Counting down the days till I'm in your arms.

2 weeks and 4 days till I'm in your arms.
It was such a relief hearing your Commander has approved your leave.
I could not contain my excitement of finally physically be in each other's presence.

These past almost 10 months has been tough.
There were moments of pain, tears and angry words.
But at no point did the thought of giving up ever cross my mind.
My heart tells my mind you are the one I wish to be with for eternity.
You have this unique superpower of making me smile, even when I'm trying hard to hide it.
Being with you has brightened my life from the darkness that I chose to protect myself in before.
There is nothing more I wish for than to spend every waking moment with you and to fall asleep next to you.

Things are finally starting to fall into place.
I have a job lined up - whilst not the easiest job, it came at the perfect time.
I believe the big decision I made to move to Hamilton was the right decision for our future.
I want a future with you.
I want to be with you.
I want you!

18 more days...

<3

~ 21.08.17 ~

Take Me Away - Lifehouse

Take Me Away - Lifehouse

This time what I want is you

There is no one else

Who can take your place

This time you burn me with your eyes

You see past all the lies

You take it all away

I've seen it all

And it's never enough

It keeps leaving me needing you

Take me away

Take me away

I've got nothing left to say

Just take me away

I try to make my way to you

But still I feel so lost

I don't know what else I can do

I've seen it all

And it's never enough

It keeps leaving me needing you

Take me away

Take me away

I've got nothing left to say

Just take me away

Don't give up on me yet

Don't forget who I am

I know I'm not there yet

But don't let

Me stay here alone

This time what I want is you

There is no one else

Who can take your place

I've seen enough and it's never enough

It keeps leaving me needing you

Take me away

Take me away

I've got nothing left to say

Just take me away

Take me away

Take me away

I've got nothing left to say

Just take me away

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Whilst I enjoy the pleasures of the life I currently am living, the distance from him is eating me up.

At the beginning of my relationship I was adamant I wanted H to move to New Zealand.

There was no way that I would be able to leave behind my friends and where I consider my home.

His brother and friend has raised a good point, why don't I move over there? 

I am starting to float the idea of moving over there to be with him.

Maybe I could be happier and live a simple life there too.

I believe he is capable of looking after me.

I still wish to have a career, but as time passes it fails to satisfy and motivate me.

I simply wish to be with the one I love, to cook for him and make him smile.

A part of me wishes he could just pluck me from my current life and just have me by his side, wherever he may be.

Fate allowed us to meet and fall in love in unlikely circumstances.

I will never stop expressing how much you mean to me because I want you to know that you are loved.

You mean the world to me and I envision so much in the future ahead of us.

Be it we have kids or not, most likely a few fur babies, we will be a happy family.

Time is precious and I appreciate every moment spent with you.

Maybe it's the lack of a routine and job to keep my mind distracted.

My day feels bleak without his presence.

I miss the sound of his voice.

I miss seeing his face, even if just for a moment before he sleeps.

When we fall asleep with the call still running, it is almost as if he was next to me in the dark.

His adorable snoring and sounds he makes in his sleep makes me wish I was in his arms.

A little over a month and it will be reality... <3

I miss you while you are away at the field.

I love reading your messages and know you are thinking of me.

My heart aches knowing the physical struggles and sleep deprivation you experience.

It will be much harder when you are deployed and might not have good connection or out at work for long hours...

There is nothing much I can do but to deal with it.

The wait will be all worth it when we can finally be physically in the same country together.

Right now I just look forward to seeing you next month.

I will struggle letting you go when I have to leave, but I will have the memories of our time together to keep me going.

I want to create unforgettable memories with you.

Our lives intertwined and in sync.

If only you could just take me away now...

I need You. 

~ 01.08.17 ~