Don't let me go, don't let me go, don't let me go, don't let me go
Won't let you go, don't let me go
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Changing to a new phone and giving my old phone to a person who would put it to good use.
Before I hand the phone to it's new owner, I was confronted by the task of removing traces my past off the phone.
Browsing through the photos of our life together I see the genuine smile, loving gaze and chemistry behind the lens. Our Love was real.
While browsing, I unintentionally stumble across something that I should have expected but the news managed to take me by surprise and knock me out in one single hit.
No I have not completely let go.
These tears, this pain, the bitter taste in my mouth...
The flashback begins.
As reality sets in the pain spreads throughout my body.
I thought I would be okay, but who am I kidding?
You overestimated my ability to move on.
You found your family and left me shattered and broken.
I am broken and cannot be mended.
It is as if while I was absentmindedly wondering down memory lane, a 12 tonne truck speed past at 100kmph and knocked me high up into the air.
Screech.
Bang.
Crack.
Silence.
You left me lying in the middle of the road bleeding while you ran off and continued on your journey.
I am the almost roadkill.
I survived, revived by medics and drugs called friends.
You continue on with your life and new family as if nothing had happened.
Even after we had ended, I never blamed you and made excuses to justify your actions while I was falling apart inside.
So many regrets, so much more I wish we could have done, so much I wish I had said to you.
I blamed myself and everything attached to me.
This pain reminds me of the cost of love.
I really love(d) you.
I was blind.
Reading that letter I wrote to you years ago brought tears to my eyes.
You may have torn the letter up and forgotten, but I still remember.
Maybe I will keep that promise I made...
You were my one and only.
You were the one I wished to spend the rest of my life with.
You were the only one I wish to marry and start a family with.
You were the one I gave my complete unconditional love and trust to.
I do not want you back nor do I wish to disturb your family.
Actions speak louder than words.
You action spoke on that fateful night 2 years ago at the petrol station when I came across that message.
What ever comes of me will be of little concern to you now.
You made your decision when you cheated emotionally.
As I hit the "reset" button on the phone, gone are the chat history, the traces of what we once were, the carrier of our past...
What remains is the memories, emotions and lessons I learnt.
You taught me the hardest lesson in life that I have yet to master.
Don't want to argue with anyone, accept what ever I have been accused off
也是該跟人生和好了
About time to make up with life
都已經幾歲了
About the right age
所有渴望追求想要的
Everything I craved, chased and wanted
看起來 都有了
Appears as if I have it all
而那些曾經很過不去的 不也都過去了
All those I couldn't overcome in the past, are now but the past
只是到了第六 第七杯 就又無力招架想你了
But when its the sixth, seventh drink, I couldn't resist thinking about you
整個人就一截 一截塌了
My whole body crumbles, one piece after another
堵塞的淚腺 終於通了
The clogged up tear duct finally clears
你一定知道我怎麼了 是心比胃先潰瘍了
You must know what is wrong with me, my heart burst before my stomach
那個洞永遠都痛著 如果你還在就好了
That forever painful gap, wish you were here
敬這無言以對的時刻
Toast to this speechless moment
打烊了 該走了
Closing time, should leave now
生命的規定是如此嚴格
Life's rules always this strict
誰能失而復得
Who can get back what they've lost
沒有了你 我算什麼
Without you, what am I
乾掉世界 又如何
Scull the world dry, and so what
漫長歲月 索然無味
Long years, bland and empty
如果你還在就好了
Wish you were here
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I still miss you...
I wonder what it would be like right now if you were here.
Despite telling myself I am happy, you left behind a void of where you once belonged.
I know I shouldn't, I know but my mind wonders...
You may not be my final destination but am the stop that changed the course of my life.
The journey left a permanent mark on my carriage that I could never forget.
You are etched in both my heart and mind.
Bitter sweet memories I recall so vividly as if it just happened the other day.
The other day was more than two years ago now...
Time passes by so quickly, what we had, will it become a faded memory one day?
Some days I feel empty, some days insecure, some days I just wish for it all to end.
I haven't cried for a long time now, I do not understand why I feel this way all of a sudden.
My tears are trying to smooth over and cover up the gash you left behind.
Futile attempt at forgetting.
Somehow, the pain just oozes.
I am trying, I really am.
I wish to be happy and am giving it a real go.
I just can't bare my all to anyone as I had with you.
Will I ever be able to feel as comfortable and safe as falling asleep in your arms, listening to the sound of your steady heartbeat, dreaming of our future together...
