Million Reason

Million Reason - Lady Gaga

You're giving me a million reasons to let you go

You're giving me a million reasons to quit the show

You're givin' me a million reasons

Give me a million reasons

Givin' me a million reasons

About a million reasons

If I had a highway, I would run for the hills

If you could find a dry way, I'd forever be still

But you're giving me a million reasons

Give me a million reasons

Givin' me a million reasons

About a million reasons

I bow down to pray

I try to make the worst seem better

Lord, show me the way

To cut through all his worn out leather

I've got a hundred million reasons to walk away

But baby, I just need one good one to stay

Head stuck in a cycle, I look off and I stare

It's like that I've stopped breathing, but completely aware

'Cause you're giving me a million reasons

Give me a million reasons

Givin' me a million reasons

About a million reasons

And if you say something that you might even mean

It's hard to even fathom which parts I should believe

'Cause you're giving me a million reasons

Give me a million reasons

Givin' me a million reasons

About a million reasons

I bow down to pray

I try to make the worst seem better

Lord, show me the way

To cut through all his worn out leather

I've got a hundred million reasons to walk away

But baby, I just need one good one to stay

Baby I'm bleedin', bleedin'

Stay

Can't you give me what I'm needin', needin'

Every heartbreak makes it hard to keep the faith

But baby, I just need one good one

Good one, good one, good one, good one, good one

When I bow down to pray

I try to make the worst seem better

Lord, show me the way

To cut through all his worn out leather

I've got a hundred million reasons to walk away

But baby, I just need one good one, good one

Tell me that you'll be the good one, good one

Baby, I just need one good one to stay

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I'm crying.

I don't know why I suddenly feel this way.

It's as if....

As if... I need convincing to stay...

As if... He doesn't need me in his life anymore...

As if... He could be with or without me in his life...

I am just listening to the song and crying.

The tears keep flowing.

I need him.

Simple things like having his number.

I've asked so many times now.

He doesn't feel the need to give it to me.

I am kept out of his life.

Away...

Maybe the others are right...

He is hiding things from me...

Maybe he lied about going through divorce...

Maybe I am the bit on the side...

The bit he could be without...

The bit that can be tossed aside.

I don't know anymore...

I don't know...

I just feel...

This pain in my chest.

This ever increasing insecurity.

This doubt in my mind that causes so much pain.

Little does he know.

Little does he know...

~ 22.2.17 ~