Let it be

Classic Beatles song - Let it be

When I find myself in times of trouble

Mother Mary comes to me

Speaking words of wisdom, let it be

And in my hour of darkness

She is standing right in front of me

Speaking words of wisdom, let it be

Let it be, let it be

Let it be, let it be

Whisper words of wisdom, let it be

And when the broken hearted people

Living in the world agree

There will be an answer, let it be

For though they may be parted

There is still a chance that they will see

There will be an answer, let it be

Let it be, let it be

Let it be, let it be

Yeah, there will be an answer, let it be

Let it be, let it be

Let it be, let it be

Whisper words of wisdom, let it be

Let it be, let it be

Ah, let it be, yeah, let it be

Whisper words of wisdom, let it be

And when the night is cloudy

There is still a light that shines on me

Shine on until tomorrow, let it be

I wake up to the sound of music,

Mother Mary comes to me

Speaking words of wisdom, let it be

Let it be, let it be

Let it be, yeah, let it be

Oh, there will be an answer, let it be

Let it be, let it be

Let it be, yeah, let it be

Whisper words of wisdom, let it be

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Sometimes I often wonder why people bother to form attachments.

As the Chinese proverb goes: 天下沒有不散的宴席 - all good things must come to an end.

Friends, family, relationships, life, all will eventually come to an end.

The more attached you are to someone, the more painful the parting will be.

In the heat of the moment you forget about the potential pain and just go for it.
In hindsight, you start noticing reasons why it would not work, reasons why you should just remain in your little bubble of self protection and avoid feelings all together. 

My friends tell me "you deserve better", "he is not worth it" but they know, I always let my "feelings" get the better of me.
I am stubborn. 
I let my emotions run my life.
I easily go with the flow and forget my own needs and desires...
I drop things to make everyone happy and pretend I'm okay when I'm really not...

I am bad with my timing, I don't have enough patience.
I had courage to confess but not able to speak up and demand for what I want.
Sometimes I don't even know what I want...

Being agnostic I do not follow any one particular religion but believe there is more to life than just what us humans can control.
Call it god, karma, fate, destiny, or simply life, I believe everything happens for a reason.
The temporary hardship and pain you feel is but a way for life to teach you a valuable lesson. 
As much as you may want something, there is only so much you can do.
As hard as it is to accept and let go, for the sake of your loved ones and especially yourself, sometimes letting go is the best solution to all your problems.
When you do not care, you will not feel the pain either.
The status quo isn't ideal, but life is too short and I refuse to let it bring me down. 
I will focus on myself and try to tick off the things on my list first.
Once I am happy and comfortable with myself then hopefully I will know what I want.
Just let it be.

-- 28.12.15 --