放下別人等於放過自己... Letting go is to also to let go of yourself...

Though I have not given it all, I still tried...

Despite not turning out the way I had hoped for, I can't lie and say I did not expect this.

I tell myself "no regrets".

Regret is the only aspect I have control over in my life.

Once you have crossed that bridge, there is no turning back.

I know he is being distant with me... for my own sake I guess...

Maybe I left it till too late and really did miss my opportunity, I will never know the what ifs. 

Life is too short to dwell on the what ifs.

I don't regret him knowing how I feel.

I really wish there is someone who likes me for who I am, accept me the way I am, and love me for being me.

There is no compromise or "settling" when it comes to love.

I am willing to risk it all for a chance of relationship because I believe and am willing to give it all.

At the end of the day, a relationship requires two willing parties to participate, I respect his decision.

Maybe not willing to lose our friendship is an excuse, I am still thankful that he at least gave it some thought.

If he wants something, he is an capable of doing something about it.

I will try not to wait around like the fool I have been in the past, revolving my day around someone else's life.

I did not have enough courage to say it to your face... 
I like you.

I will try to change that to liked...

Letting go of him I am also letting go of myself.

I will be truly happy one day.

No more forced smiles.

No more pretence. 

No more pain.

Happy. 

-- 16.11.15 --