I Was Here

I Was Here - Beyonce 

I wanna leave my footprints on the sands of time
Know there was something that, meant something that I left behind 
When I leave this world, I'll leave no regrets

Leave something to remember, so they won't forget

I was here

I lived, I loved

I was here

I did, I've done everything that I wanted

And it was more than I thought it would be

I will leave my mark so everyone will know

I was here

I wanna say I lived each day, until I die

And know that I meant something in somebody's life

The hearts I have touched will be the proof that I leave

That I made a difference, and this world will see

I just want them to know

That I gave my all, did my best

Brought someone some happiness

Left this world a little better just because

I was here

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Finding purpose and meaning to my life is a forever changing journey.
I am not just a cog in the wheel of life.
I am the mechanic in control of the spanner that changes the direction the cogs turned.
I make the calls and face the consequences be it good or bad.
I wish to bring happiness to those I love and live with no regrets.

A day away from the rest of the world with one of my best friends made me realise I cared too much in the past.
I need to let go and not put up with things, draw the line and leave when it is not worth it.
It is not okay to be neglected, to be left out, to feel disrespected.
If you do not wish to interact with me then do not invite me to gatherings.
I would rather not be there at all than feel unwanted and as if I am intruding. 

You are confused and acting inconsistently, I do not know what you want.
Friends, if even that, I have accepted.
You do what ever you want, I am just going to recharge and stop caring.

I am not as forthcoming as my best friend, but I am learning.
Life is unpredictable and may be short, I need to make the most of it and not have any regrets.
There is no point being afraid of the consequences or of death, just live.
Do not waste time and energy that you cannot get back on what is not worth it.
It is okay to stand up for yourself and confront the issue.
It is also okay to walk away.

I know I am not perfect, but no one is, perfection is but an perspective.
I accept myself for who I am and am learning to love myself.
I am never truly alone as I have my best friends.
They are the one that I wish to make a difference in their life.
They are the one that I wish to bring happiness.
He is missing out and that is his choice.

My choice from here on is ME.

-- 28.3.16 --